December 2011
7 posts
i don't like letting the people at home know...
i just don’t.
i can’t even explain it to them if i tried.
Im scared. scared of what i might do. scared of what happens when Im better. scared that when better comes. ill have ruined every thing for every one.
i want her help how do i ask for it
Sorry for all this guys.
I'm in a mood.
I’m sorta scared. Unfortunately, nothing I do would suggest this.
Why bother asking for help when I never listen.
Ha ha ha.
The temporary solutions seem to only be good for a year. Afterwards, it all goes to shit again.
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I think I might've figured it out.
As stupid as it sounds, I think the reason I’ve been unable to give two shits about school or take any of it seriously is because when I force myself to, I hate my life.
I mean, I tried last night. I told myself, I’ve already majorly fucked up one class, I shouldn’t completely show my worthlessness by failing the others. So I turned the computer off and tried focusing completely...
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Stay close to me. Can you see it in my eyes?
I bring it all on myself. I cannot understand why I cannot bring myself to care more about what happens to me academically, but that I want to kill myself now that i’m almost sure I’ve fucked up past the point of being fixable.
I don’t care about going to college anymore but quitting is not an option. i can’t do that to my mum.
Then why would i even think of doing...